It’s interesting how much you can change or develop in such a small amount of time. I honestly think that since the beginning of 2013 when I took a trip to Gladstone’s Library and decided I was going to finally try and get somewhere with my writing, I have come even further along with my development than I have managed in the whole four years since I finished my MA.
I made the decision in January, and, for the first time, I meant it. It’s amazing what excuses you can make for yourself, to yourself. And, largely, it’s fine. The only person you’re letting down is yourself. If you’re not all that fussed about getting anywhere, then you won’t. If you decide you finally want to do something…it happens.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying I’ve had a road to Damascus moment and am now declaring myself A Great Writer. Far from it. I still have a long way to go. I just mean that since January (and even more since June when I got given a deadline for October) I have worked hard. And it’s incredible how much I have got out of it.
I honestly think my technique has improved, just by doing it every day. I’m finding my voice and I’m getting somewhere. My determination certainly has strengthened and I have proved to myself just what I can do when I push myself.
Part of this mission I set my self in January was getting the blog rejuvenated. And what a vital cog in the machine that has been. I have made contacts, I’m learning from other writers every day, I keeping my finger on the pulse and learning more and more about the publishing world as well as finding inspiration everywhere I look from people walking the same path I am.
I now have a short story coming out in an upcoming anthology (a collection of dystopian sci-fi, Tuned to a Dead Channel – out 20th September! Watch this space) and I have also started in on a new project. I have found that these developments have driven me back to my first love – sci-fi.
Some would argue there are a lot of parallels between sci-fi and fantasy, which I was writing at the beginning of the year and that it can’t have been so much of a 180. And they would be right. However, I have found the story I have developed, the characters and universe I am roaming in, are a completely different tone, style and theme to anything I’ve tried before.
I’ve ratcheted up the dark, the doubt, the conflict and the tension. And I love it. I wonder if this is what I should have been doing from the beginning. But you sometimes have to find a 10,000 ways not to make a light bulb before you make one that works.
I feel I will be in this zone for some time to come so I felt The Path would benefit from a look that was less ‘fantasy’. It has served me well this far and I plan to continue using it to face the challenges, air the musings and ask the questions I need to ask to keep moving and keep growing.
Fingers crossed I keep it up and keep making things happen. And thank you so much to the wonderful community of writers and readers I have so far encountered on WordPress. You are a BIG part of where I am right now.